i just realise something...1 factor is not enough to work a thing...it's just so complicated to say...well, i face this kinda problem..when i have to choose two different ways, which both will give me bad results, but it's just the matter of time...whether i want the short term or the long ones...the result will be the same which i have to lose...is it really the way?? sumtimes i feel this is so unfair to me..but i have to think for others as well..why doesn't it work if we want to??? the answer is...this is not as simple as u think...i can think of sumthinkelse if i want...cos i have more time to think and play...but not others...

sooo....wat should i do???wait?move?or just pretend that it never happened to me?? the third choice is so absurd...coz i can really feel it...if im not wrong of course...

im scared..if one day, it just disappears...and left me with nothing...and if it stays away from me now, maybe i have to be prepared...IF i can...hope i can...

now, my wish is just to make it stay with me...as long as possible...