Morning Morning

i am sure i cant wake up earlier than 10 am...oh no, i am wondering how can i face the first day of the school, 2 oct, im gonna be late, pretty sure...SHIT!

uuuuuuhh..it's really comfortable to live in a CLEAN house..i cant stop talking abt it, hehe >.<, i have a date with my zara n feli, shopping time, not actually, it's just window shopping, we're looking for a dress for prom...huh, i dunno wat kind of dress suit me...HUKS...

i had a nightmare last night, it's about gambling, and i lost everything....hate it...huh...

havent i told u that yesterday my bf gave me a box of RUM TROUFLE and visit me surprisely???hehehe, it's kinda nice of him...i really love it, thanks to you zen...hehehehe...we plan to finish the troufle on friday, 29/09/07 hehehe 4th month anniversary, with my Muscato Wine...hehehehhe...LOVE IT!!!!!!!! i've been really MISSING him hukz....

okay, i wanna take a bath, but beforehand, im gonna make sure that zara n feli are already waked up.

cleaning the houze,,,

hohohoho, finally, it's been a long time since i cleaned my house, it is a small room actaully, but still, it looks so messy and dirty before...hahaha...and today, i cleaned it all the way, kitchen, bathroom, carpet...wow, i become a servant today, but that's fine, now i am satisfied,,,hahahaha....

oh ya,,,my dload limit is just 700mb right now, it is another finally as i never finiched it, i watched a lot in youtube, i think that utube is such a good web, i like it a lot... recently, i've been watching entertainment by xiao s, and it is talking abt relationship of zai zai and barbie hsu, i really like seeing them together, such a nice couple, though barbie is 5 years old older that zai...

i watched zai's interview on utube regarding their relationship and it seems so sweet, hehehehe really wondering why they are not playing in a movie anymore, in Mars, they are really nice to be together in a play and also real life...hehehhee

ok, i am still looking at webs for accomodation...ciao

crying in every laugh

tired...a feeling that makes me sad...i dunno why you told me that ur tired...of me, perhaps.
this is really a shock for me, i never imagined u told me that. it hurts, but i have made a promise. i will never cry. instead, i just laugh all the way... both happy and sad moments , i will laugh loudly, and thank God for the moments.

Crying in every laugh... it is a good way to console urself. telling the world that u r the happiest person here. i can do that... i am sure i can...

speechless

ini smua salah gw. sorry

Being myself?? damn hard

kenapa ya being myself itu kok susahnya slangit???? kadang environment itu force us buat jadi different person, both good or bad.. kapan si kita bisa jadi diri kita sendiri?? yang bebas and seenaknya, tanpa peduli wat other's thought, kayaknya impossible banget d.

aku kadang bingung aja...aku tu org yang kayak apa?? kok kdang aku ngrasa kaya bunglon, yang mesti camouflage di stiap environment, kalo gt, aku lebih parah dunk... soalnya kalo bunglon aslinya ijo, aku sndiri ga tau pa aslinya, tiap kali camouflage ga balik lage ke yang lama...kenapa gt???

hm...sumtimes i think, apa itu yang nmanya manusia, mesti brubah and improve, jadi tiap kali kita berubah and adapt, kita benernya improve???? bener ga si?? tp kalo anak yang ke luar negri trs jadi ga bener...improve apanya ya??hahahaha...begooo...

wat a life...!!!

lonely

do you ever feel this way?
crowded but empty
silence
to loud to be heard

screaming and soaring
crying in every laugh
you would never understand
the loneliness inside me

if someone will see through
i hope it is you
i love you

the loyalty

yesterdya i was waiting for my bf in front of Coles supermarket near his house, and i saw a dog, quite big and scary but anyway, i was only looking at him inside the car so it's ok..hehe. And the dog was tight up, waiting for the owner to come out from Coles. i kept watching it and i realised one thing, dog is such a loyal animal, this dog seemed to worry as the owner still had not come out, at least that what i felt. he looked everytime people passed him by. when the owner came, he seemed to hug him and glas. oh my gosh, i dunno why i was so touched by that scene. Such a loyal animal. although i hate dogs, i dunno why i found that dogs are not that bad. hahahaha...
I still scared of them though. hahaha..