hmm...hm...ga tau mesti mulai dr mana ya...gw kadang feel gak terlalu compatible ma dia...kok isa ya gw ngrasa ginI? sumhow...apa gw terlalu kecil..apa isa work ni relationship?tpi gw sayang ama dia..gimana ya? haiz...kok gw mikir banyak gini sih??

well, hari ini gw ke ruma dia...masak2...makan bareng (as usual) and gw ngafalin monolog gw...susa si.. tpi dikit lage isa kok...mg2 aja nilainya cukup bagus buat bantu lite gw yang hopeless...hehehe...skarang lage nyoba bikin bibliography hoi...hohoho...and moga2 isa...HARUS isa...

hmm...benernya relationship itu mesti gmana si???gw ma dia itu...gimana si??gw ma dia happy2 aja..at least gw ngrasa kayak gitu...and i think he feels the same...cuman sumhow...sumhow...apa bener distance kta terlalu banyak? apa bener si??

moga2 aja bisa work out...hmmmmm,...yeah...hope so...

hmm....happy? of course...ga ada yang lebih buat gw hepi slain 2 hari ini..hehehe...knapa??ada deeee...yang tau ya tau aja..yang ga tau yaaaa bukan urusan elo juga kok...hehehe (jahat ga seh>.<) anw.... thanks bangetttttttttttttttttttttttttttt buat tomato...yang uda buaek banget bantuin gw bersih2...eh tpatnya bersihin ruma gw...omigodd..gw janji and swear ga bakal nelantarin rumah apalage sampah...lebi dr sminggu ...tp kalo tumpukan baju bole ya???soalnyaaaaaaaaa soalnyaaaa kadang males...heueheuheuheue....yaaah..pkoknya gw ga mau lo kaya gt lage...nyusahin n ngrepotin banget ...gw mau jadi mandiri...

ooo iyaaaaaa...gw lmayan pusing ma pelajaran gw ni....thermochemistry ga segampang itu..ya si cuman nambahin n ngurangin butttttttttt bikin pusing juga...bete...huh....tp harus usaha...and and and...gw mesti DO SOMETHING for my lite...i have done somtehing by changing my tutor...hope this one is better huehuehuee...aniwayyyyyyyy aniwaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....pkoknyaaaaaaaaaaa gw ga bole gini trus...bisa2 jelek smua nilai eke...hohohoho

haizzzzzzzzzzzz....overall...hari ini lebih dr cukup alias bahagiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

hehehe...thanks for suppi n zara...ur companionship and care are really important for me...
buat tomato...thanks for everything

slamat pagi dunia >.<

gw kurang bobo...puyeng2 nyeng nyeng
haiz...
prut kok ga isa diajak kompromi yah..
heran eke
hohohhohoho...

btw....
start a new day...with a new piece of paper..
hohohoho

O iye...buat reders...lagu keren minggu ini...Heaven (ayumi) ama Now that she's gone (jj LIn)

you know that i miss you so
i didnt know you had to go
you've had enough of our distance

before i had the chance to say
i'm staying with you
for the rest of my life

dont keep telling me these words
you dont know how much it hurts
and i'll promise you eternity if you promise me your stay
but now it's to late
i'm no longer the girl that i was

i will go on without you
like a fool who's too sure
i'm like a bird who's lost your wing
a fire without a flame

i don't know how to be strong
when my love has moved on
i am a song withou a soul
now that she's gone
what's left of us is this song

this is our song without a soul
now that u're gone
what's left of us is this song


hmmmmmmm....life is really unpredictable...i suppose this song is abt my day (esp today)...buttttttttt...i dun think so....hehehe

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat the freeeeeeeeeeeeeakkk......................!!! i feel like shit today...i just wanna scream and be angry to sumone but i dunno who...really...i wanna hit...kick...KILL!!!! i really hate u all people..............who makes me angry today...whoever u r...UR SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!

okay, well, i should not be like this...it's just so wrong and i also dunno why am i doing this kind of shit today................................!!!!!

everything just so lame and irritating todayyyyyyyyyyyyy...i hateeeeeeeee it!!!


okay just piece of shit..bye


ps: happy bday zen...sorry for behaving like this...

i'm glad to have such a happy family..i have a complete family members, although i dun have younger siblings...but that's fine with me...

sumtimes i find my elder bro is irritating, but he cares for me anyway...he never showed directly to me, but i can feel it ...hahahhaa...
my mom...is the best mom..hehehe...i luve her cooking...and also all cares that she's given me...thanks mom...you're the best..
my dad...i used to hate him BUT...now...i really2...LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE HIM>.<, he's worked hard for me and my fam...i know that he loves us more that he loves himself...I lUv u, Dad...


i really cant imagine wat my life would be if i dun have them in my life..it's not abt financial support(money$$), but my mental support...i always tell them everything abt things that happen in my life...and they (esp.my mom) always give the best solution that i ever heard...they know me better than i know myself...

thanks God, for giving me such a wonderful family and also friends...thanks for everything...

i have never been through a really BUSY DAY before...this is he first time i found myself so busy...and it's all because of the school work and 'home' work...uh...i need to clean up my hoz...and also my fridge...and yet, i still have to work on my essays...HOI and EAP...so far, i have been only concentrating in HOI and i do nothing for EAP...and it is HELL...i mean, it is near to the DEADline...uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh....i really have to work really fast but SURE...not SLOW and SURE...uuuuuuuuuh...

and furthermore, my physical condition is not supporting my ENVIRONMENT condition...i have been losing my voices for 3 days...eh..no...4, i supposed..hehehe...and it TORTUREs ME..really..i cant awake till too late and then i have lesser time to work on my essays..huaaaaaaaaaa...dunno wat to say...lots of interuptions...

i have been quite productive for these few days...i was doing my HOI essay and EAP essay...and still, i have no idea wjat is about (the HOI) and hoping that i will understand better after i read all those copies that i found yesterday...

well, i can say that i have been very excited these few days as well..but today...i dun think so...i have this kind of mental prob which can make me cry everytime i'm alone...gosh, is that really scarry?? but yeah,that's still me...the unpredictable me...huh...the reason behind it might be because of a lot of work to do and the lack of motivation and i force myself to do all those things in a short period of time...and the result is I STRESSED UP myself, easily hurt, more sensitive than before and depressed....

HOW TO WORK ON IT?
i dun have the answer yet...maybe tml, which is WEEKEND...i wanna relax a bit...having girls night in and hanging around with my buddies..hehehe...that's been a week since i felt how enjoyable WEEKEND is...hahahahhaa...and at the night, i have to do the HOI things again...this time with mu FRESH brain and also...i have to get the idea of what is it and how to do this essay...and then i have to do my maths...haizzz...you see, after this refreshing thing which should be FUN, i have to go back to these works AGAIN...ooooooooooh nooooooooooo....this is called COLLEGE...so is COLLEGE life fun???the life is FUN but the studies ARENOT fun...hehehehee


i gotta go to sleep rite now...it's 12.10 am...and i have 9.30 class tml morning...damnnnnnnnnn...i will be really sleepy tml...huaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh..

bye...

terdiam dan merenung
apakah salahku
apakah khilafku

benarkah ini akan berlalu
dan pergi
tanpa jejak

jika memang harus seperti itu
biarlah berlalu
inilah yang terbaik bagiku

i read zara's blog just now...it's about friends and how do friends make a great influences in your life???hm...friends...i can live without them but do you think that's called life when you have no friends? yeah, it's true to say that "i can survive without friends" but is that life???okay first thing is...what is my opinion for life???life is not just...i can breath, wake up and still in this world..that's not LIFE...life, for me, is something where i can interact with others...just imagine when you live in this world by yourselves..nobody talks to you...and you are so alone...is that life???yeah..you are alive..but is that meaningfuL?? so...i was aking myself...do i need friends?? and i said a bog YES for it..especially here...friends like MY FRIENDS are really friends( wat a crap!!), they gave me good influences..and taught me how to appreciate friendship...and i am glad to have friends like them...how abt others who know me and vice versa but they gave me such a bad influences into my life?? is that called friend?? NO...plis say NO...they are called friends just bcoz they know u and u know them...they don't even care when u are sick..they don't even give a damn when you are in trouble...and they only wanna share ur happiness...is that friend? they don't know your life...and vice versa...

so...the moral of this post is...friend is a person who always there for you and they make your life amazing ...and who realise your absence in a glance.

okay...that's it for tday..